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Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Somewhere In The Middle

Half of the time, I can’t remember the things I dream.  It seems like when I do remember them I’d wish I didn’t.  Yesterday was one of those days.  Maybe I watch too many horror movies or maybe I am just a disturbed person.  My dreams have been imbedded into my head.  What’s worse is they are happening in the state of sleep paralysis (half asleep/half awake) which can be outright terrifying.  
Yesterday, I was feeling exhausted around two in the afternoon.  I decided to lie down and take a nap before the kids came home from school.  I’m sure it was the snow that had crept into Oklahoma recently that made me feel so sleepy.  I curled up into the bed and nuzzled under the covers.  I dreamed I was taking a nap and woke up.  In my bedroom, there was an attic door on the ceiling that had been pulled down with the door extended.  In reality, there is only access to the attic up the stairs and it is a walk in attic.

In the dream, I was only slightly alarmed by the open attic.  I climbed out of bed and in my living room there was another attic on the ceiling with the ladder extended.  In the dining room, it was the same thing only the ladder had been broken into pieces on the floor.  The hallway closet was open.  It was the open closet that made my heart start to race.

I picked up my cellphone and dialed 911.  The operator was an idiot who I repeatedly gave my address to over and over again.  It was as if I was on a three-way call with the 911 operator and the police department.  I pleaded for them to send someone to my house and stated that someone is in here with me.
As I am pleading for them to help me, everything in my house turns on almost as if the electricity had been out.  The fans are spinning at their highest speeds.  The televisions and radios are all blaring loudly.  All of the lights came on at the same time.  At this point I look down the hallway and I noticed my son’s door begin to open and a shadow creeps out into the hallway.  I take off back towards my bedroom and into my closet where the safe room is located.  I make it into the room and slam the door behind me.  I manage to lock it as whoever it is stands on the other side trying to turn the knob.  I can see a shadow underneath the door.

Then I wake up, fully alert.  My heart is pounding in my chest.  I look at the clock and only about a half an hour has passed since I first laid in the bed.  Yeah, nap time was over.

Later that night after I sent the kids to bed, I climbed into my bed around 10:30pm.  I dreamed I woke up again and the bathroom door and closet doors were open.  Immediately, I felt startled.  I never sleep with doors open.  I heard whispering all around me and one by one I started to see these cloud-like, smoky images in front of me.  They appeared to have facial features and it looked as though they were whispering.  I tried to climb out of the bed but I was tangled in the covers.  I knew I was dreaming and was trying to get myself to wake up.  The whispers felt as if they were getting louder and louder.

I woke with a jolt and all at once there was silence.  I glanced over at the clock and thirty minutes had passed yet again.

Am I saying my house is haunted?  Not at all.  I do think something is weighing on my subconscious though.  Maybe I am being haunted by something like my own failure.  Who really knows though, right?  Maybe I just watch to many horror movies…


  1. I would never think of any part of your life as a failure. Maybe because you do have things under control your dreams are expressing the anxiety you might feel if things were not in control and completely out of your hands. What if land, even in dreams, is a terrible place to go. Of course I am not an expert and I enjoy way too many macabre movies, stories, etc. Maybe you should read a couple of Eat, Pray, Love books and watch romantic comedies that make our hearts go squishy to even things out. NAH! That just wouldn't be you. ;)

  2. Very creepy case of False Awakening, which is like the opposite of lucid dreaming which is where you realize you're dreaming in the middle of the dream. In the false awakening you think you've woken up, usually in the exact same place where you went to sleep with all the details reproduced much more faithfully than they usually are. However, this false awakening is usually accompanied by a very unsettling feeling that something is kind of "off" (when you look back on the dream you may even notice that the lighting and certain details are a bit aschew; your home but yet it looks and feels just a little...different.) From there the dream usually spins out of control or takes a shocking and sudden turn, the classic waking-with-a-gasp type of dream.

  3. Here's the Wikipedia article about it, in case you think I'm talking out my ass ;D

    Your dream fits the "type 2" description (which the entry claims is uncommon, but I've had it happen quite a bit.)

    the subject appears to wake up in a realistic manner, but to an atmosphere of suspense.[...] His surroundings may at first appear normal, and he may gradually become aware of something uncanny in the atmosphere, and perhaps of unwonted sounds and movements.

  4. Open doors...

    I have no idea what open doors and whispers mean in dreams.

    Except that maybe you need a new bed, too.

  5. I think it's the zombie cows. They are controlling your dreams. ;)

    I actually thought maybe they had gotten hold of you since you haven't been around much, but I'm glad to see you're back!

  6. Hi not sure how I found you, random google I think,but saw you are a fellow Okie. Though I would say hi since I don't see fellow okies with my non-beliefs. :) I plan on stopping by every now and again to your blog.

  7. Oh, how horrible! I've had those types of dreams but usually while on medication that doesn't suit me. Amitriptylline does it to me, and so (occasionally) does codeine. I also had some BP meds once that gave me very bad nights.

    So... are you on any new prescription drugs? If so, I'd talk with your doc!

  8. @Jay No, I'm not taking any sort of prescriptions. Years ago I was prescribed Ambien and it made me see things in my waking state. It scared the crap out of me!!


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